seorgia: (Default)
( Mar. 10th, 2007 02:03 pm)
So talking with people and here are my thoughts:

You know how you think something doesn't hurt anymore. Then you have to describe it to someone or remember it and it hurts all over again. I hate that. I hate it a lot.

All great leaders are only as good as the people they surround themselves with. If you want to see how healthy they are, or how they are doing look at their closest friends and you'll see. Or better yet look at how they treat them, and you'll see even clearer.

I use my memory like a band-aid to a little child. Cover it up, forget about it, and it is all better. But it isn't all better and it never will be.

It can suck just as much that you were right as that you were wrong.

I'm not as nice a person as I play on TV. But I am nice enough to not say the things I'm thinking.

If everyone around you tells you that you are being a prick, look again it might be true.

Sometimes when you think you are really good at something you aren't. Don't lie just because you can. People aren't stupid and you are never as good at it as you think you are and if you think I'm talking about you, I probably am.

You can't save people if they don't want to be saved.

And of course the ubiquitous BOOBIES, because if I'm not amusing you or threatening to hurt someone, obviously you aren't interested in knowing me. But even one-trick ponies get tired.



Also, I would just like to say OW and FUCK, as I just caught my nipple on the door as I opened it to go it. Something about nipple rings makes you hit yourself in the nipple with doors.
seorgia: (PurpleKitten)
( Sep. 15th, 2005 01:20 am)
It is 1:20 I should be asleep. I was instead having in-depth conversation with Murphy in the kitchen. LOL We are such dorks but it was good I needed to talk. I find it funny that I will talk things out with people now. I didn't used to. I think I'm getting old. But I like getting older. I always have liked the idea of getting older and then eventually old. Don't get me wrong. I don't like the idea of being old and unable to care for myself. I hope this never happens. But I like the idea of being an old person. I like the idea of being able to look back at a long life, take a deep breath, and die. I like that idea. I know why but it is odd for people to admit it I think. Mostly people are caught up with resenting growing older. I'm not. I hope to never be either.

Anyway I think I hashed out what was really bothering me about things. it was good to get it outside of my head and have someone pick it apart with me and to admit to what was really bothering me. Why things were really getting to me. I don't think I'll ever explain it well to others but at least I know why even if I find I am utterly embarrassed by it. I should not be embarrassed by caring about others and wanting their care and being rejected for it in the way I wanted it. I shouldn't be but I am. I feel stupid in many many ways. Now I realize this is a loaded statement. I'm not going into it on LJ. If you want to know and don't already feel free to email me. Anyhow so the conversation was nice. I need to sleep but I still can't. Oh well. So we talked. I'm going to try and find my father this month. I am a bit worried about it but I need to. I can't let it rest anymore. I have to be brave and take the step that may make me unhappy for a long time. But while my memories are warm I should not have just them. I must take the good with the bad and promise myself to always remember the man who took me fishing all the time. And who held my hand as we walked in the store. I'm fairly certain I know what I will find when I find him but I need to do it anyway. Maybe I will be wrong. I pray that i am wrong. Please let me be wrong.

Sleep now maybe, maybe not.
seorgia: (Purple Fire)
( Sep. 14th, 2005 05:52 pm)
So while driving for lunch today I noticed my wrist and how it attaches to my arm. A funny thing to notice I know but it is what caught my attention. Me rattling about me mostly )

My day was fairly good. I have been very productive today.
My day all day )
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