Let the wrong begin

So today was... today was... well I guess today just was. Jam the cat died today. I woke up just about in time for his passing. Jam was not my cat like Mika is my cat. He was Matt's cat and Kae's cat and later on a bit of Gryph's cat. I loved Jam even though I wasn't anymore than another annoying human wandering around his home. He was a good good kitty who like to beat up the dog. I am always fond of cat's beating down on dogs. He and Mika always seem to get along and were somewhat fond it seemed in a cat sort of way. He had a good long life and chose to go out on his own terms. I'm sure what else to say besides the obvious I will miss him.

Good Bye Jam. May the winds bring you much can food and plenty of pink-monkey and dog free spave to roam.

I am an animal lover. I adopt pets constantly. I would have more but my housemates would in fact kill me. I enjoy caring for them and watching them grow. I give to animal charities. I have volunteered before at shelters. This is what I do do with my time and money to help pets and animals around the world. I ran into an article today about animal abuse that just made me sick all over again.

I'm sure other people have already heard about it but I don't watch the news frequently. Down in Costa Rica some "artist" decided to display a sick and starving dog in a gallery and to let it die there while people watched. He has said many different things about why he did this. People have all reacted differently. Many people want to hurt him. Others applaud his ballsieness. Then there are those who say it was shameful but try and justify it. I'm not sure what camp I fall into honestly. I understand why someone might think this idea had merit. Some of why he said he did it makes sense. I agree we need to pay more attention to the starving and dying animals of this world, humans included. I just do not think this is the way to do it. If you wanted to show that dogs are starving on the street go take pictures. Do something that qualifies as art not torture. Sure that dog would probably have died on the streets. I agree with you there but to me there is a difference in an animal dying in a natural, though unfortunate way, and an animal dying for your amusement and fame because that is what this was about and why it gets to me. Yes, he may have in fact actually cared about the starving dogs. I'll let that one slide though I have my doubts. But if you really cared you wouldn't use something like this to illustrate your point. If you want something sensational that will get you noticed there are other ways that will probably work just as well. Hell stack up a pile of rotting dog carcasses if you want, I bet you people would have noticed that. This just seems unnecessarily cruel in some fashion. I wish I was more eloquent. I wish I could make people see that if you really want to change the world you shouldn't feed into the same horrible cycles.

Look I am a bad person. I want to do bad things all the time. I control myself because I understand social boundaries not because I think some things are wrong or because I don't want to do them. I know I'm wired badly and I compensate. If I did something like this I would not say it was because I was trying to raise awareness. I would not sugarcoat it. I do not believe that this man is really about making a difference. He may think he is, he may have at some point convinced himself he believes in that but he is like the shockjocks on the radio. He wants people to know his name and to speak of him in hushed tones. He wants the hatred and the abuse. He wants the attention and will do anything to get it. How else can you explain something like this if not for that? This is not about the animals and maybe it isn't about being a sickfuck but there is no way this is not about attention.

I just... I got nothing.


I see people doing horrible things all the time to people and animals and the world. Where am I going with this little post? I have no idea. Maybe nowhere, maybe everywhere. It just seems that somehow things shouldn't be this way and yet I know they are. I guess it boils down to this, I am crazy as hell and I can avoid doing fucked up things. Why can't other people who are supposedly saner and nicer then I? Why do people have to get outraged at something like this for it to not happen? Shouldn't there be something in people's heads that says "Oh wait bad idea"?

Anyhow I have chores to do. I want to do a bunch f stuff this weekend around the house since it will be mostly empty. Of course I intend to do most of it on Sunday and Monday as Saturday is my super lazy day.

There will be no snake babies in a few months. Tigger has died of unknown causes. She was just lying in her cage like she had died mid-slither. Plisken and the others all seem fine. I'm going to go feed them all shortly. I was reading about corn snake causes of death and I guess it is not uncommon for them to just... stop.

I haven't had a snake die in years. Corn snakes live so long I wasn't expecting any of them to die for years. I'm just not sure what to say. I guess she needs to be buried now.

Goodbye Tigger. I'm sorry I wasn't a good enough snake mommy. Rest in peace little one.