Let the wrong begin

So I upgraded my drugs yesterday. Hmm I feel kinda like a drug addict even saying that. Hell admitting to taking even doctor prescribed things (the only drugs I take) makes me feel like less of a person but there you go. At some point I got it into my head that I must be the most macho person around and never admit to a weakness. I've been working on that, as I'm sure anyone who even vaguely watches this LJ ill be aware of since I whinge on about things so frequently.

Anyhow yes so I'm now up to 20mg a day of Lexapro and we are now back to the getting used to it stages. Honestly, my system seems to like it well enough but it does cause me to be amazingly sleepy for the first week or three. Like almost to a stupid amount. I just want to sleep or lay in bed kind of sleeping. I skipped classes today because I wasn't entirely sure I should be driving I was reaaaaaaally sleepy. I was talking with Kae about my sleeping habits and she feels I've been sleeping way more then I thought I was sleeping. I'm not entirely sure she is wrong so I've decided to keep a sleep journal just to monitor it all. Should be rather interesting to see. Of course the next few weeks aren't going to count. Hell even now I just feel foggy and my hands feel too heavy to type. It fades though so I'm not worried. Hopefully it will work out better. Mmmm i love that I'm going to be a druggy for the rest of my life. Just makes me want to go put a bullet in my brain pan but I guess that's why I'm there in the first place.

It is amazing the scars your parents leave behind that you aren't even aware of until much later in life.

I swear I had more to post but I'm thinking sleep is soon to be taking over and I don't want to drool on my keyboard. That and after a cursory check for spelling errors found a billion I'm not sure I'm actually typing legitimate words. Mmmm goobly-gook