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I am still awake! Bwhahaha, fuck you sub-conscious! Though my awake status through amazing amounts of tiredness should surprise no one who knows of my addiction to staying up 'til the cows have come home and then gone back out again.
I'm seriously thinking of sleeping but I'm a bit gun shy after dreams of twitchyness and I hate sleeping at night. It isn't natural. There is no day star to make you warm and comfy. No wonderful noises and people to watch wander by. And besides all that being awake at night is fun. Okay, sometimes it is boring but I still rather like it. I think I've been sleeping in my car too much lately. I haven't begun feeling tired while driving but I really miss the sunlight and people at the college.
Tomorrow I go to the college to help Jesse prep for her party. I'm bringing gear and my amazing talent of doom! Bwhaha. I expect to be there cooking for a good portion of the day (squee!). I made a list of things to bring and I have a basic time-line for cooking in my head so all should go smooth. I have to prep when I wake up and then head on over early so I can drop my withdrawal from Contemporary Novel off at the SUB.
Crap I'm not sleepy anymore. I hate insomnia. You know I promised myself I would stop bitching and whining in these damn posts but fuck it. It's my damn journal and I'll be a whiny bitch if I want to. ....... Having said that um yeah I'm annoyed. Yeah, wish I could sleep. Oh and I'm hungry but it is too late to go eat anything. Oh and um ... hmmm what to bitch about? *ponders* I'm not wealthy? Damn my lack of unlimited funds. hmmmm what else? I'm thinking of strangling a friend's friend for being a complete twat. Then again that isn't new and interesting. But my life is rather boring. You I hate saying that since it isn't boring really. I've seen boring and I've seen busy, it isn't really either. My life is just, well there. I was thinking about dying the other day (I'm weird so sue me. I get bored while driving and let my mind wander) and I decided that for all I've done next to nothing with my life if I kicked the bucket like right now I will have lived a good life. It isn't perfect and I've fucked up loads of times but I think I did alright. I made more people happy then sad. I managed to gain a wonderful family and a few really good friends (and then all you other rabble :P). I've managed not to kill or seriously injure anyone to my knowledge. So all in all not bad. For all my amazing ability to fuck up and procrastinate my life tends to be pretty good. I've lost people along the way. Clan, friends, lovers and I've had my share of upsets but I guess we could count this as a win.
Having said all that I'm tired enough that I can taste the depression on the back of my tongue. I suppose I'll go try and sleep again.
You know one thing I really hate about April Fool's day is sometimes I can't tell if someone is joking or not and it is rather important. There was a death in one of my fandoms posted about yesterday and I just can't be sure. I feel like an ass for asking so I'm not gonna. Someone did something like this year before last in the same fandom so now I'm just confused and I'm not sure what I should feel. Shit, it looks like it is real. Fuck, fuck, fuck!
I'm seriously thinking of sleeping but I'm a bit gun shy after dreams of twitchyness and I hate sleeping at night. It isn't natural. There is no day star to make you warm and comfy. No wonderful noises and people to watch wander by. And besides all that being awake at night is fun. Okay, sometimes it is boring but I still rather like it. I think I've been sleeping in my car too much lately. I haven't begun feeling tired while driving but I really miss the sunlight and people at the college.
Tomorrow I go to the college to help Jesse prep for her party. I'm bringing gear and my amazing talent of doom! Bwhaha. I expect to be there cooking for a good portion of the day (squee!). I made a list of things to bring and I have a basic time-line for cooking in my head so all should go smooth. I have to prep when I wake up and then head on over early so I can drop my withdrawal from Contemporary Novel off at the SUB.
Crap I'm not sleepy anymore. I hate insomnia. You know I promised myself I would stop bitching and whining in these damn posts but fuck it. It's my damn journal and I'll be a whiny bitch if I want to. ....... Having said that um yeah I'm annoyed. Yeah, wish I could sleep. Oh and I'm hungry but it is too late to go eat anything. Oh and um ... hmmm what to bitch about? *ponders* I'm not wealthy? Damn my lack of unlimited funds. hmmmm what else? I'm thinking of strangling a friend's friend for being a complete twat. Then again that isn't new and interesting. But my life is rather boring. You I hate saying that since it isn't boring really. I've seen boring and I've seen busy, it isn't really either. My life is just, well there. I was thinking about dying the other day (I'm weird so sue me. I get bored while driving and let my mind wander) and I decided that for all I've done next to nothing with my life if I kicked the bucket like right now I will have lived a good life. It isn't perfect and I've fucked up loads of times but I think I did alright. I made more people happy then sad. I managed to gain a wonderful family and a few really good friends (and then all you other rabble :P). I've managed not to kill or seriously injure anyone to my knowledge. So all in all not bad. For all my amazing ability to fuck up and procrastinate my life tends to be pretty good. I've lost people along the way. Clan, friends, lovers and I've had my share of upsets but I guess we could count this as a win.
Having said all that I'm tired enough that I can taste the depression on the back of my tongue. I suppose I'll go try and sleep again.
You know one thing I really hate about April Fool's day is sometimes I can't tell if someone is joking or not and it is rather important. There was a death in one of my fandoms posted about yesterday and I just can't be sure. I feel like an ass for asking so I'm not gonna. Someone did something like this year before last in the same fandom so now I'm just confused and I'm not sure what I should feel. Shit, it looks like it is real. Fuck, fuck, fuck!
Woot I have class in 15 mins and I have had a very productive day. I also spent a few hours between classes sleepy in my car. The dreams i had were very strange and I had to drag myself to the class right after. I think the only reason I went (besides the fact that I'm a good Seo... hehe yeah right) was that it had my favorite teacher and it is my fav class. The material is rather dry but the teacher makes it fun and I am actually somewhat interested in the economic history of the States. So I have math class next which is boring and full of the painful seats. God the damned things are uncomfortable. That is one problem I have with having 10 hour days of class it is not so comfortable to sit that long.
Oh well I guess I should toddle off to class. I have a couple errands to run after class and then home I go. I need food for the lizards (which Mika will not stop tormenting) and the mail a couple things. I want to get some writing done today. I was thinking over the Whale Song book and came up with something wonderful last night before finally passing out at like 6 in the morning. Oh sleep dep how I missed you. Four more days to spring break. I'm getting excited. All sorts of sleep and writing to be had. Plus a fair amount of gaming with my newly upgraded computer WOOOT! I can't wait for my parts to arrive * does a jig*. Plus I'm trying to get people to come over to party/game. Bwhaha
Oh crap class time!
Oh well I guess I should toddle off to class. I have a couple errands to run after class and then home I go. I need food for the lizards (which Mika will not stop tormenting) and the mail a couple things. I want to get some writing done today. I was thinking over the Whale Song book and came up with something wonderful last night before finally passing out at like 6 in the morning. Oh sleep dep how I missed you. Four more days to spring break. I'm getting excited. All sorts of sleep and writing to be had. Plus a fair amount of gaming with my newly upgraded computer WOOOT! I can't wait for my parts to arrive * does a jig*. Plus I'm trying to get people to come over to party/game. Bwhaha
Oh crap class time!
Aghhhh stupid headache go away!!! I don't like you very much. You are not making my day any better.
On the plus side I'm going to see The Mist in a real theater. The dollar theater near my school is playing it and I'm going.
On the not plus side I'm fairly depressed and happily not caring about the world or anything in it. At least I wish I wasn't. Instead my brain seems very determined to go over the same thoughts repeatedly. Bwhaha fuck you brain I shall rot you with horrible movies. Take that bitch! There is no depression there is only Zule motherfucker!
Ugh I should eat something today I think, besides that five fruit-roll ups I had earlier for brunch. Bleh such a waste of time tracking down food. Only really want protein. been on a major protein kick lately. Mmmm wings and steak.
The stupid vampire song by the Smashing Pumpkins is stuck in my head. I blame the Kheprians of course. Specifically Gryphon. Grr you evil vampire!
The sun is out today and it is very warm. I think I wish I was a plant so I could lay around in the sunlight all the time and be quiet. I like the sun. I spent my free time between classes in my car stretched out in a sunbeam. I wish I had fur like my cat to get all warm and toasty in the sun. Mostly I just wish I was something else that didn't think too much and get headaches like ice picks in your brain. Mostly I'll just be happy when the 12th rolls around. I gots wicked surprise plans.
God I wish my head would stop hurting. Fucking stress headaches.
On the plus side I'm going to see The Mist in a real theater. The dollar theater near my school is playing it and I'm going.
On the not plus side I'm fairly depressed and happily not caring about the world or anything in it. At least I wish I wasn't. Instead my brain seems very determined to go over the same thoughts repeatedly. Bwhaha fuck you brain I shall rot you with horrible movies. Take that bitch! There is no depression there is only Zule motherfucker!
Ugh I should eat something today I think, besides that five fruit-roll ups I had earlier for brunch. Bleh such a waste of time tracking down food. Only really want protein. been on a major protein kick lately. Mmmm wings and steak.
The stupid vampire song by the Smashing Pumpkins is stuck in my head. I blame the Kheprians of course. Specifically Gryphon. Grr you evil vampire!
The sun is out today and it is very warm. I think I wish I was a plant so I could lay around in the sunlight all the time and be quiet. I like the sun. I spent my free time between classes in my car stretched out in a sunbeam. I wish I had fur like my cat to get all warm and toasty in the sun. Mostly I just wish I was something else that didn't think too much and get headaches like ice picks in your brain. Mostly I'll just be happy when the 12th rolls around. I gots wicked surprise plans.
God I wish my head would stop hurting. Fucking stress headaches.
Cycle:
1. An interval of time during which a characteristic, often regularly repeated event or sequence of events occurs: Sunspots increase and decrease in intensity in an 11-year cycle.
2.
a. A single complete execution of a periodically repeated phenomenon: A year constitutes a cycle of the seasons.
b. A periodically repeated sequence of events: the cycle of birth, growth, and death; a cycle of reprisal and retaliation.
I have school tomorrow. It was snowing earlier and I need gas for my car.
I might make a trip this weekend. I've been planning it for a few weeks though I know my gaming buddies want to do Vampire this weekend. Bugger I need more hours in the day at times. Haha I'm so popular and in demand. Funny how laughing hurts.
One week, 6 days *smile*
I have a killer headache. Today was mostly spent with me in my room trying enjoying the dim lighting. I also went shopping with K mmmm Shiny! The I went out and picked up a video for Gryphon and couldn't stand to stare at the TV long enough to watch it. oh well maybe some other time.
You ever try and talk with someone about something and they think they know what you are talking about but they are in a completely different field? Like they just can't look past the very obvious to what is really on your mind? And you repeat yourself that A, while a glaring issue, isn't the real issue and matters almost not at all other then it is a subset of other issue but not important in and of itself? Sometimes I find talking to walls to be more productive then to other people. At least a wall doesn't often tell you what your issue is even when you know what your issue is...well not too often. I have boxes of books covering my walls. Books are very nice to talk to, they usually tell you a story or flutter at you. I like books. They are usually very nice and soft spoken creatures.
I have school all day tomorrow. I believe I should go to bed and stare at the ceiling for a while since I'm not tired. *giggles*
1. An interval of time during which a characteristic, often regularly repeated event or sequence of events occurs: Sunspots increase and decrease in intensity in an 11-year cycle.
2.
a. A single complete execution of a periodically repeated phenomenon: A year constitutes a cycle of the seasons.
b. A periodically repeated sequence of events: the cycle of birth, growth, and death; a cycle of reprisal and retaliation.
I have school tomorrow. It was snowing earlier and I need gas for my car.
I might make a trip this weekend. I've been planning it for a few weeks though I know my gaming buddies want to do Vampire this weekend. Bugger I need more hours in the day at times. Haha I'm so popular and in demand. Funny how laughing hurts.
One week, 6 days *smile*
I have a killer headache. Today was mostly spent with me in my room trying enjoying the dim lighting. I also went shopping with K mmmm Shiny! The I went out and picked up a video for Gryphon and couldn't stand to stare at the TV long enough to watch it. oh well maybe some other time.
You ever try and talk with someone about something and they think they know what you are talking about but they are in a completely different field? Like they just can't look past the very obvious to what is really on your mind? And you repeat yourself that A, while a glaring issue, isn't the real issue and matters almost not at all other then it is a subset of other issue but not important in and of itself? Sometimes I find talking to walls to be more productive then to other people. At least a wall doesn't often tell you what your issue is even when you know what your issue is...well not too often. I have boxes of books covering my walls. Books are very nice to talk to, they usually tell you a story or flutter at you. I like books. They are usually very nice and soft spoken creatures.
I have school all day tomorrow. I believe I should go to bed and stare at the ceiling for a while since I'm not tired. *giggles*
Exams in two classes this week. Well okay last week but one didn't get done until today. I did alright in the one I did last week. I would have gotten an A but I kinda completely read the final question wrong and wrote a brilliant essay on the wrong damn thing. Duh! So no points there. This bring that exam down to a C but it doesn't count of much to the grade so I'm not worried. It was a sort of test exam so we could get an idea of how he does these things. So I think I'll do fine in the class. Actually it is a fascinating course, mostly because the teacher is so amazingly cool. It is almost enough to make me wish to change my major to economics... almost. The other test went well and I'll get my grade later this week. Blegh I hate accounting. At least at this level where they change things every other second. Oh that and I have decided all economics is based on some made up BS by some old white guys. Microeconomics seems to be the softest science I've ever studied and that is so saying something.
Anyhow school is going okay. I didn't get to math class today because the roads had turned to crap and I wanted to get home before it all froze over.
Ugh headache. Enough updating from me.
Anyhow school is going okay. I didn't get to math class today because the roads had turned to crap and I wanted to get home before it all froze over.
Ugh headache. Enough updating from me.
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I am amazingly tired. But there shall be no rest for the wicked. Tomorrow is the Lantern Festival (okay a day or two early but the weekend is a no go). So tonight I have been cooking up a storm and today I went shopping at the local Asianish market. Tomorrow's menu is something like this:
Steamed pork buns
Turnip cake
Edamame
Mochi and Green Tea ice cream
fried dumplings
And some random candy and snacks
Bubble Tea
Part of that I made from scratch. I meant to make up more lanterns but ran out of time. Bugger LOL. Maybe I'll make some with the kids when I get home tomorrow or maybe I can convince Kt to help me out by projecting the kids. Either way it should be fun. I have a few friends dropping by though there are almost no definite times for anyone *chuckles*.
I have two tests tomorrow. One first thing in the morning and one at like 2 pm. Ugh I still need to study. Juggling cooking, hair care, and studying today has not been fun. I'll be happy when the weekend comes and I can crash. I'm still a bit jet lagged.
K 'nough out of me. I've got some buns to finish and some accounting to review.
Steamed pork buns
Turnip cake
Edamame
Mochi and Green Tea ice cream
fried dumplings
And some random candy and snacks
Bubble Tea
Part of that I made from scratch. I meant to make up more lanterns but ran out of time. Bugger LOL. Maybe I'll make some with the kids when I get home tomorrow or maybe I can convince Kt to help me out by projecting the kids. Either way it should be fun. I have a few friends dropping by though there are almost no definite times for anyone *chuckles*.
I have two tests tomorrow. One first thing in the morning and one at like 2 pm. Ugh I still need to study. Juggling cooking, hair care, and studying today has not been fun. I'll be happy when the weekend comes and I can crash. I'm still a bit jet lagged.
K 'nough out of me. I've got some buns to finish and some accounting to review.
Ugh my head feels so fucked. I had more weird dreams while sleeping in the car through lunch (who needs food?). Shanti was in one. I hope she is doing alright. I don't have class until 5 because of the middle of the day class being canceled. Couldn't be at the end or beginning? Nope, it had to be my mid-day class.
So I'm online for a bit then I'm going to go get some coffee. I'd do both at the same time but you can't have coffee in the computer lab.
Ugh my head feels horrible. Maybe I should have gotten lunch or breakfast after all? Naw fuck that whole eating nonsense. Coffee will fix all.
My last class is math and the weather is beginning to get fairly craptastic. Oh joy. I believe I'm going food shopping tonight and I have a birthday cake I'm completing tomorrow for a friend of mine. Was supposed to do it today but i don't think transporting a cake in this weather is going to be on my to do list.
Huh aim, I don't think relief should make you want to go throw up. Haha stomach I haven't given you anything! There's nothing to throw up you suck! Ooo headache.
Offline time.
So I'm online for a bit then I'm going to go get some coffee. I'd do both at the same time but you can't have coffee in the computer lab.
Ugh my head feels horrible. Maybe I should have gotten lunch or breakfast after all? Naw fuck that whole eating nonsense. Coffee will fix all.
My last class is math and the weather is beginning to get fairly craptastic. Oh joy. I believe I'm going food shopping tonight and I have a birthday cake I'm completing tomorrow for a friend of mine. Was supposed to do it today but i don't think transporting a cake in this weather is going to be on my to do list.
Huh aim, I don't think relief should make you want to go throw up. Haha stomach I haven't given you anything! There's nothing to throw up you suck! Ooo headache.
Offline time.
I was going to go get pierced today (probably for the wrong reasons honestly) but I was twarted by a lack of a piercer in New Paltz. Instead Jesse and I sat around the Muddy Cup drinking coffee and chatting about recent events and other random things. It was fairly pleasant. Afterwards we watched a horrible movie at her place (my choice of movie was flawed) ad then I went on home.
My head is still all over the place. I feel like I should just repeat that over and over because that is all my mind seems able to do, repeat things over and over again. I'll be home most of tomorrow catching up on school work and trying to help out around the house. I have a shagload of chores to do I just haven't had any interest in doing the past week or so. I do need to run out and get food for my lizards and take care of one or two other things. I'm leaving to visit my mom in a few days. I'm not sure if I am excited or not. I don't really like being gone from my household for that many days in a row. I miss my kids and my housemates and I have pets that require attention but I like seeing my mom. It is probably good for me to get away for a while but I really don't want to. I wish my mom lived a bit closer. Then I could visit more often without it eating a week of my time.
There are so many things I want to say to so many people right now. The thoughts crowd the back of my teeth waiting for a chance to escape. So many things it feels like drowning while awake.
Gonna head to bed now. I believe my mood has fallen again. I should go to the doctor and get things checked but it requires too much energy and I just don't care enough to bother.
My head is still all over the place. I feel like I should just repeat that over and over because that is all my mind seems able to do, repeat things over and over again. I'll be home most of tomorrow catching up on school work and trying to help out around the house. I have a shagload of chores to do I just haven't had any interest in doing the past week or so. I do need to run out and get food for my lizards and take care of one or two other things. I'm leaving to visit my mom in a few days. I'm not sure if I am excited or not. I don't really like being gone from my household for that many days in a row. I miss my kids and my housemates and I have pets that require attention but I like seeing my mom. It is probably good for me to get away for a while but I really don't want to. I wish my mom lived a bit closer. Then I could visit more often without it eating a week of my time.
There are so many things I want to say to so many people right now. The thoughts crowd the back of my teeth waiting for a chance to escape. So many things it feels like drowning while awake.
Gonna head to bed now. I believe my mood has fallen again. I should go to the doctor and get things checked but it requires too much energy and I just don't care enough to bother.
Ugh I am tired. I had school all day (though I missed my morning class) then I headed up to Albany to shop from Chinese New Year and say good bye to Scott. He is off to Germany for a few weeks on more army training goodness. I'm so jealous that he is going to Germany though. I know it is for army stuff but he still will get to spend lots of time off base. We met up with Jay and Heather and had a grand time. I do miss seeing my Scottling everyday.
I am going to desperately try and get up at 9 in the morning tomorrow so I can get bills paid and help take care of the mutt. I've been horrible about mutt duties since school started. I'm still trying t figure out my schedule and work her into it properly. As is three days a week I'm just plain gone all day at school. Tomorrow is one of those days but I don't have to leave until 11 so I'll at least be able to get her up in the morning as long as I manage to drag myself out of bed.
School is going fairly well so far. I have homework due and a ton of reading for my intro to novel course. I need to download the books. I've got the first one, Don Quixote, saved on my computer. I'm trying to avoid buying most of my texts this semester since I never use the bloody things anyhow.
Alright bed for me. I'm tire as hell and I've alot of work to do tomorrow.
I am going to desperately try and get up at 9 in the morning tomorrow so I can get bills paid and help take care of the mutt. I've been horrible about mutt duties since school started. I'm still trying t figure out my schedule and work her into it properly. As is three days a week I'm just plain gone all day at school. Tomorrow is one of those days but I don't have to leave until 11 so I'll at least be able to get her up in the morning as long as I manage to drag myself out of bed.
School is going fairly well so far. I have homework due and a ton of reading for my intro to novel course. I need to download the books. I've got the first one, Don Quixote, saved on my computer. I'm trying to avoid buying most of my texts this semester since I never use the bloody things anyhow.
Alright bed for me. I'm tire as hell and I've alot of work to do tomorrow.
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Responsible Seo strikes again.... well sorta.
I got my last class situated today. It took me running all over campus. Unfortunately this was during one of my classes BLEGH which is why i have time to post.
But I'm way liking my teachers more this semester. They are much easier to understand and I feel far more confident that I'll do okay. I really need to do okay this semester also.
Later today I'm going out with Jenn to hang out. I ran across Wyatt in the computer lab and chatted. Hung out with Sean during lunch and met some new people. They decided I was the coolest person ever. I forget the name of the chick who said that. It was fun. When I'm in a good mood I make people laugh. When I'm in a bad mood no one does but not always because I say mean things. Somehow I infect everyone with my mood bahahaha! Which means of course it should be everyone's ultimate goal to make me happy because then i will make them happy and this is of course what everyone should want.
I spent my Microeconomics class trying not to fall asleep. I finally figured out if I write bad BDSM poetry I can stay awake. I might actually edit it into something unhorrible later. I like the meter on the second one quite a bit. I have Rise of the Novel next. The read was amazingly horrible and I can't wait until next week when we start actually reading some novels. Right now we are reading critical debates or some nonsense that mostly have nothing to do with novels. Seriously one was a piece by Sigmund Freud on dreams! WTF mate. I spent my morning in Accounting class planning the cake for tomorrow, brainstorming Celia's party baked goods, and making a list of food for Chinese New Year. Speaking of which I need to discuss guest lists with my family. The first day of the New Year is for family and only those very very close to the family so I get damned picky about who I invite.
Eeeeekkk class!
I got my last class situated today. It took me running all over campus. Unfortunately this was during one of my classes BLEGH which is why i have time to post.
But I'm way liking my teachers more this semester. They are much easier to understand and I feel far more confident that I'll do okay. I really need to do okay this semester also.
Later today I'm going out with Jenn to hang out. I ran across Wyatt in the computer lab and chatted. Hung out with Sean during lunch and met some new people. They decided I was the coolest person ever. I forget the name of the chick who said that. It was fun. When I'm in a good mood I make people laugh. When I'm in a bad mood no one does but not always because I say mean things. Somehow I infect everyone with my mood bahahaha! Which means of course it should be everyone's ultimate goal to make me happy because then i will make them happy and this is of course what everyone should want.
I spent my Microeconomics class trying not to fall asleep. I finally figured out if I write bad BDSM poetry I can stay awake. I might actually edit it into something unhorrible later. I like the meter on the second one quite a bit. I have Rise of the Novel next. The read was amazingly horrible and I can't wait until next week when we start actually reading some novels. Right now we are reading critical debates or some nonsense that mostly have nothing to do with novels. Seriously one was a piece by Sigmund Freud on dreams! WTF mate. I spent my morning in Accounting class planning the cake for tomorrow, brainstorming Celia's party baked goods, and making a list of food for Chinese New Year. Speaking of which I need to discuss guest lists with my family. The first day of the New Year is for family and only those very very close to the family so I get damned picky about who I invite.
Eeeeekkk class!
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I'm so behind on emails and updates. Just been I don't know, out of it.
*HHHHHHUUUUUGGGGGSSSS* To everyone who wished me a Happy Birthday! I love you all and my birthday was spectacular. Maybe I'll post about it tomorrow.
I start school in 4 hours and I doubt I'll go back to sleep. I slept alot yesterday. My sleep schedule is so screwy.
Eh not feeling like updating this much.
*HHHHHHUUUUUGGGGGSSSS* To everyone who wished me a Happy Birthday! I love you all and my birthday was spectacular. Maybe I'll post about it tomorrow.
I start school in 4 hours and I doubt I'll go back to sleep. I slept alot yesterday. My sleep schedule is so screwy.
Eh not feeling like updating this much.
I have one more final in 45 mins. I'm way passed nervous and shaky. Definitely shouldn't have had that huge latte earlier on.
I would love to say something meaningful here about well anything honestly but I can't. I'm fried. I just want this semester to be over and me not kicked out of school. I don't care what grades I get anymore-- I just want to be done.
Ugh my toes are cold. I hate cold toes.
Oh and I wish my AmLit teacher would put better notes u p on Blackboard.
Christ I'm going to fail at life here soon.
Three more hours and this semester is over mostly.
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I would love to say something meaningful here about well anything honestly but I can't. I'm fried. I just want this semester to be over and me not kicked out of school. I don't care what grades I get anymore-- I just want to be done.
Ugh my toes are cold. I hate cold toes.
Oh and I wish my AmLit teacher would put better notes u p on Blackboard.
Christ I'm going to fail at life here soon.
Three more hours and this semester is over mostly.
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It is officially Seo school crunch time. I had my first solid paranoid dream about having an assignment due today that I forgot to do. I know I don't have anything due for that class today and yet...
*sighs* Bad week.
EDIT: Okay so I went to the class and nothing was due. I knew in my head that nothing was due yet still it got to me. I actually used my evil lucid dreaming powers to wake myself up from the dream. I told my teacher about it and evidently I was the second or third person this week who has told him they dreamed about his class. Evidently I was the only one who had a bad dream. Just my luck I guess.
Oh and on other notes, if you email me or IM me or reply to a post and I don't get back to you please don't take it personal. As many of you know I get a little weird and scatter brained towards the end of my semesters.
*sighs* Bad week.
EDIT: Okay so I went to the class and nothing was due. I knew in my head that nothing was due yet still it got to me. I actually used my evil lucid dreaming powers to wake myself up from the dream. I told my teacher about it and evidently I was the second or third person this week who has told him they dreamed about his class. Evidently I was the only one who had a bad dream. Just my luck I guess.
Oh and on other notes, if you email me or IM me or reply to a post and I don't get back to you please don't take it personal. As many of you know I get a little weird and scatter brained towards the end of my semesters.
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I'm now not sure where quote I like better. I AM BEOWULF or THIS IS SPARTA! Maybe I should go with THIS IS BEOWULF! Or I AM CAKETOWN!
LOL
Anyhow the movie was way kickass. Though they did take quite a few liberties with the plot. And by liberties I mean they both have the same name and a monster that's about all. Not sure how many as I've not read the epic poem. It was a good mixture of action and plot which kept me happy and oblivious to the time passing. Which is all one can really ask for of such a flick? I only had one CGI gripe throughout the entire movie but I won't mention it before anyone sees it otherwise I have a feeling it will drive them batty too. Oh and one gripe I cannot resist, what the fuck is up with accents in movies lately? Either everyone does one (the same one preferably) or no one should. This piecemeal crap is annoying as hell and I couldn't understand a damned word Grendel said. WTF mate? Evidently if I had read the original I might have understood more but since this only resembled the original if you were a deaf, dumb, and blind retarded mutant wombat I don't think that should be something you have to do. Dumb and American type opinion I know but what is the movie is not far from there.
I'm a little sick right now and just took a hit off my inhaler. Damn thing makes me feel like I've taken speed or something. Actually I have no idea how speed makes you feel as I've avoided all hard drugs. Anyhow I feel worse when I lay down to rest which just proves my point that there can be no rest for the wicked.
Oh and we were talking about dead baby poems in American Lit today and since I had just seen Beowulf with its litany of dead babies I wrote this cute little poem in like two minutes. The chick who sits next to me whose name I don't remember got a wicked kick out of it. Asked for a signed copy LOL!
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Anyhow the movie was way kickass. Though they did take quite a few liberties with the plot. And by liberties I mean they both have the same name and a monster that's about all. Not sure how many as I've not read the epic poem. It was a good mixture of action and plot which kept me happy and oblivious to the time passing. Which is all one can really ask for of such a flick? I only had one CGI gripe throughout the entire movie but I won't mention it before anyone sees it otherwise I have a feeling it will drive them batty too. Oh and one gripe I cannot resist, what the fuck is up with accents in movies lately? Either everyone does one (the same one preferably) or no one should. This piecemeal crap is annoying as hell and I couldn't understand a damned word Grendel said. WTF mate? Evidently if I had read the original I might have understood more but since this only resembled the original if you were a deaf, dumb, and blind retarded mutant wombat I don't think that should be something you have to do. Dumb and American type opinion I know but what is the movie is not far from there.
I'm a little sick right now and just took a hit off my inhaler. Damn thing makes me feel like I've taken speed or something. Actually I have no idea how speed makes you feel as I've avoided all hard drugs. Anyhow I feel worse when I lay down to rest which just proves my point that there can be no rest for the wicked.
Oh and we were talking about dead baby poems in American Lit today and since I had just seen Beowulf with its litany of dead babies I wrote this cute little poem in like two minutes. The chick who sits next to me whose name I don't remember got a wicked kick out of it. Asked for a signed copy LOL!
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I'm at school being very bored. No one is around to play with, I still can't find the damned gaming store (I must have a mental block), and I don't have class for another four hours. Hmmmm what's a girl to do? Kill people? No not allowed. Go find a nice place to eat and read? No not hungry and not interested in reading. Oh I know--BEOWULF!!!! YAY! So now I am off to see Beowulf. Hmm I hope the theater is not overly busy. 12:30 on a Friday.... naw probably pretty empty.
BEOWULF!!!!
BEOWULF!!!!
I am having way too much fun on Facebook. It is oddly addictive. Can't even explain it really. Right now I'm having fun sending gifts to people. I love sending gifts. Though I wish there was some way I could send the gift without them being bothered to get the application. Though I suppose they could get it and not keep the app on their profile.
Anyhow I am now telling all of you go go get facebook profiles so that I will have more people to play with. Do you hear me! I require attention and love via facebook. Come keep me company!
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Anyhow I am now telling all of you go go get facebook profiles so that I will have more people to play with. Do you hear me! I require attention and love via facebook. Come keep me company!
This post has been brought to you by the letter stress and the number overworked.
So I finally sat down and wrote out my semester by semester plan for school. Oy I'm never going to be done *cries*.
Actually it looks like I'll be done in oh 2010. I officially feel depressed. I need to see if some of this can be done during the summer or winter sessions. *checks* Okay looks like the vast majority of the classes do have summer sessions. Now I just have to figure out summer session financial aid type things.
Hmm I see a project for my down time between classes on Friday. Academic Advising here I come!
Actually it looks like I'll be done in oh 2010. I officially feel depressed. I need to see if some of this can be done during the summer or winter sessions. *checks* Okay looks like the vast majority of the classes do have summer sessions. Now I just have to figure out summer session financial aid type things.
Hmm I see a project for my down time between classes on Friday. Academic Advising here I come!
I had to go rearrange my class schedule a bit today. The Creative Fiction craft class I was trying to get into was a no go mainly because my teacher didn't explain things properly. That or he got confused with another teacher. I'm not exactly sure but regardless I got dicked over a bit.
Oh well I was able to switch it out for a business class. Hopefully this will work out okay. I'm still on for only three days a week and the time is about the same. I might spend some time reworking things but maybe not. I have class on Monday, Tuesday and Thursday. Monday I'm out by 4:40 and I have a huge chunk of free time in the middle from 1:40 - 3:30. Tuesday and Thursday I'm out by 6:15 but on Tuesday I have gaming and on Thursday I might start going to the Anime club so I probably won't be home 'til late on those days. All in all not a bad schedule.
Of course alot of this depends on getting through this semester which is going to be an interesting sight all on its own.
Oh well I was able to switch it out for a business class. Hopefully this will work out okay. I'm still on for only three days a week and the time is about the same. I might spend some time reworking things but maybe not. I have class on Monday, Tuesday and Thursday. Monday I'm out by 4:40 and I have a huge chunk of free time in the middle from 1:40 - 3:30. Tuesday and Thursday I'm out by 6:15 but on Tuesday I have gaming and on Thursday I might start going to the Anime club so I probably won't be home 'til late on those days. All in all not a bad schedule.
Of course alot of this depends on getting through this semester which is going to be an interesting sight all on its own.
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LOL Robot chicken is hilarious.
So I'm at school being bored as usual. Not hungry so I'm just kind of staring at my work portion all forlorn-like. Maybe I'll feel like eating later. Didn't finish all of my breakfast either. Just not hungry lately. *shrugs* Oh well, maybe later. I really want fruit roll-ups but we didn't buy any on our last store trip and I haven't gone to pick any up so I have none to munch. Probably better that way. They were becoming my only source of food during the day.
Getting really psyched for NPC this weekend. Have friends coming into town and I'm making almost all of my housemates come and visit. Think K is taking the kids though I was mostly joking. I'm now not sure if I should tell her not to. I think they'll have a good time looking around at all the adults playing video games and they might even learn a few things. But I'm not entirely sure there will be anything for them to play or do besides look. We don't have a kiddie area set aside (maybe I'll suggest it for some other time). I don't think any of the kids are old enough to play some of the games. Maybe they could play YuGiOh. Hmm not sure if we have any of that going. So yeah there's a conundrum.
Kt has been gracious enough to sew my clothing for the weekend since I don't need it 'til after Halloween. I spent last period making a better diagram of what I have in mind. I think it will look mad kick ass. Still need to go find a black t-shirt in the right size.
Hmmm my laptop clock says it is 1:18 Como say WTF mate? How did my laptop get set back an hour. Bad laptop no biscuit.
I should stop rambling and go read... actually fuck that I hate author we are reading in American lit. I will state for the record I hate Walt Whitman's writing. Fucking annoying crap. And I don't give a damn about his huge impact on Great American Literature; you can suck my nonexistent wopanigganese cock.
So I'm at school being bored as usual. Not hungry so I'm just kind of staring at my work portion all forlorn-like. Maybe I'll feel like eating later. Didn't finish all of my breakfast either. Just not hungry lately. *shrugs* Oh well, maybe later. I really want fruit roll-ups but we didn't buy any on our last store trip and I haven't gone to pick any up so I have none to munch. Probably better that way. They were becoming my only source of food during the day.
Getting really psyched for NPC this weekend. Have friends coming into town and I'm making almost all of my housemates come and visit. Think K is taking the kids though I was mostly joking. I'm now not sure if I should tell her not to. I think they'll have a good time looking around at all the adults playing video games and they might even learn a few things. But I'm not entirely sure there will be anything for them to play or do besides look. We don't have a kiddie area set aside (maybe I'll suggest it for some other time). I don't think any of the kids are old enough to play some of the games. Maybe they could play YuGiOh. Hmm not sure if we have any of that going. So yeah there's a conundrum.
Kt has been gracious enough to sew my clothing for the weekend since I don't need it 'til after Halloween. I spent last period making a better diagram of what I have in mind. I think it will look mad kick ass. Still need to go find a black t-shirt in the right size.
Hmmm my laptop clock says it is 1:18 Como say WTF mate? How did my laptop get set back an hour. Bad laptop no biscuit.
I should stop rambling and go read... actually fuck that I hate author we are reading in American lit. I will state for the record I hate Walt Whitman's writing. Fucking annoying crap. And I don't give a damn about his huge impact on Great American Literature; you can suck my nonexistent wopanigganese cock.
Okay, seriously, it can't be too illegal to strangle my microeconomics teacher now can it? I mean, I don't want to kill her or anything but just enough damage so she can't talk at us for an hour and a fifteen minutes. Seriously I mean it can't be all that illegal? And it would be so therapeutic. That counts for something doesn't it? My mental health has to mean something to someone besides my housemates. I'm used to the idea of being crazy. I've had 25 long years to understand that I'm bug nuts; this class is just not helping. Neither is my Financial Accounting course. This shit is almost enough to make me want to change my majors. Almost. What keeps me going is the knowledge that I'm not going to college to become either an accountant or an economist. I know I'll be good at what I want to do. Fuck this shit.
Christ I'm tired, horny, and now fucking jittery as hell since I decided a latte was the only way I was getting through this day. All I've had to eat today is like 5 fruit roll ups and three bites of the sandwich K made me for breakfast. I suppose I'll eat it for lunch but I don't really feel like eating. Ever get tired of eating? I suppose that is a really weird thing to get tired of doing but I'm kinda bored with the idea of eating lunch. Guess I'm not hungry enough to bother. I also really want sushi. They have some in the SUB but the requires me to go over there and spend money which is another thing I don't want to do. Damn I'm too lazy to feed myself. That's just sad.
Handed off the cupcakes to Wyatt I promised him last night. He was happy which made me extra happy after dealing with that crap-happy economics class. Stupid teacher let us out late and I almost missed the hand off. God I hate that class. At least I'm not the only one in the class who thinks the teacher sucks. We spend the time before class bitching about her and it somehow makes the first 30 or so minutes okay. Then I get bored and start nodding off. This leads to daydreaming about lascivious or homicidal things. That class is having a very bad effect on my daydreaming habits.
Okay I should stop bitching but I'm really twitchy and I have an hour and a half before my next class. Hmm not sure I've done the reading for that class yet. Well that gives me something to do at least.
EDIT: (You get an edit because I'm sure another post will drive you all nuts.)Common Errors in English ~cool site I just ran across while dicking around between classes. I'll be the first to admit I use some really non-standard grammar when posting and speaking but I do generally know the proper format, I just like my own speech patterns better. Anyhow cool site to surf so you too can play Grammar Nazi with your friends. BTW am I the only one who always pronounces Nazi with a 'T'? Half the time I have to remind myself not to spell it with one. But I love spelling bastardizations. Ahh Poe our birthday is not the only thing we share. See Poe made up words all the time and no one stares askance at him, why is it so weird when I do? Hmm time to stop babbling.
Christ I'm tired, horny, and now fucking jittery as hell since I decided a latte was the only way I was getting through this day. All I've had to eat today is like 5 fruit roll ups and three bites of the sandwich K made me for breakfast. I suppose I'll eat it for lunch but I don't really feel like eating. Ever get tired of eating? I suppose that is a really weird thing to get tired of doing but I'm kinda bored with the idea of eating lunch. Guess I'm not hungry enough to bother. I also really want sushi. They have some in the SUB but the requires me to go over there and spend money which is another thing I don't want to do. Damn I'm too lazy to feed myself. That's just sad.
Handed off the cupcakes to Wyatt I promised him last night. He was happy which made me extra happy after dealing with that crap-happy economics class. Stupid teacher let us out late and I almost missed the hand off. God I hate that class. At least I'm not the only one in the class who thinks the teacher sucks. We spend the time before class bitching about her and it somehow makes the first 30 or so minutes okay. Then I get bored and start nodding off. This leads to daydreaming about lascivious or homicidal things. That class is having a very bad effect on my daydreaming habits.
Okay I should stop bitching but I'm really twitchy and I have an hour and a half before my next class. Hmm not sure I've done the reading for that class yet. Well that gives me something to do at least.
EDIT: (You get an edit because I'm sure another post will drive you all nuts.)Common Errors in English ~cool site I just ran across while dicking around between classes. I'll be the first to admit I use some really non-standard grammar when posting and speaking but I do generally know the proper format, I just like my own speech patterns better. Anyhow cool site to surf so you too can play Grammar Nazi with your friends. BTW am I the only one who always pronounces Nazi with a 'T'? Half the time I have to remind myself not to spell it with one. But I love spelling bastardizations. Ahh Poe our birthday is not the only thing we share. See Poe made up words all the time and no one stares askance at him, why is it so weird when I do? Hmm time to stop babbling.
Why do all the crazy fuckers in the world think I'm their very best friend? Are they looking for death? Is this some strange suicide attempt? Because seriously I'm willing to oblige. One yesterday and now the chick in class. WTF??
On other news I may have a new job within the week.
On other other news I'm completely fucking bombing this semester. I believe crying will shortly be in order.
On other news I may have a new job within the week.
On other other news I'm completely fucking bombing this semester. I believe crying will shortly be in order.
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Why is it the boys I like are always either taken, to far away, or not interested?
The new GamerBoy is taken. It is so sad. Oh well he is cute and reasonable eye candy. I will enjoy him for what he is. Weird thing is he is like a nicer version of me, only taller. (God I wish I was taller) I guess I'm in a self-centered sort of mood.
School is otherwise going for crap. I got 9 out of 10 on my Microeconomics quiz yesterday. I don't believe I've turned in any homework for that class. I hate the teacher she is a crap teacher. She obviously understands the material very well but she is bad at explaining it all. I don't think I did as well on my mid-term today for the same class. Oh well. I just keep reminding myself that these aren't my end areas of study and if I can just struggle through this and my math course I will be okay. After this I only have Statistics to get through and then I'm done with math for my major. I hope the other teachers are better. All of my business course (math, micro, and financial accounting) classes have teachers that either understand the material to well to explain it properly or are boring. *sigh* This semester is not gong well for me at all. Well as far as my business classes are concerned. I'm doing well in both of my English classes. We discussed my poem in Creative Writing 2 for 45 mins. LOL That's about 3 times longer then anyone else. I write dense poetry. I think I'll throw up a version of it here. I need to work on the title. Right now it is called Baby Killer but I don't like it and it doesn't need such a punch-in-the-face title.
I hate math. I just plain hate it. I used to be good at it. Now every time I start a problem I feel like crying. School shouldn't make me cry, that's just not fair. I hate my teacher for being an obtuse bastard who doesn't explain what I need him to explain clearly. I hate that I can't get this when I know it is easy. I hate that I'm sure I'm just missing something tiny. Some small step that makes it all come together and that I can't express that to anyone in a way to get me help. Great and now I'm crying again. I can't even face math class today. I can't quit I need these stupid classes to be able to advance to the next stage in my degree. I will never ever need this crap again and it is going to stop me from advancing to something worth while. Why the hell do I need a portfolio for math class? I hate my teacher. I just plain hate him even on a professional level. As a human being he is very nice I just wish he'd make more sense or be able to help me.
Fuck this I'm going out.
Christ I wish I was anywhere but here.
The new GamerBoy is taken. It is so sad. Oh well he is cute and reasonable eye candy. I will enjoy him for what he is. Weird thing is he is like a nicer version of me, only taller. (God I wish I was taller) I guess I'm in a self-centered sort of mood.
School is otherwise going for crap. I got 9 out of 10 on my Microeconomics quiz yesterday. I don't believe I've turned in any homework for that class. I hate the teacher she is a crap teacher. She obviously understands the material very well but she is bad at explaining it all. I don't think I did as well on my mid-term today for the same class. Oh well. I just keep reminding myself that these aren't my end areas of study and if I can just struggle through this and my math course I will be okay. After this I only have Statistics to get through and then I'm done with math for my major. I hope the other teachers are better. All of my business course (math, micro, and financial accounting) classes have teachers that either understand the material to well to explain it properly or are boring. *sigh* This semester is not gong well for me at all. Well as far as my business classes are concerned. I'm doing well in both of my English classes. We discussed my poem in Creative Writing 2 for 45 mins. LOL That's about 3 times longer then anyone else. I write dense poetry. I think I'll throw up a version of it here. I need to work on the title. Right now it is called Baby Killer but I don't like it and it doesn't need such a punch-in-the-face title.
I hate math. I just plain hate it. I used to be good at it. Now every time I start a problem I feel like crying. School shouldn't make me cry, that's just not fair. I hate my teacher for being an obtuse bastard who doesn't explain what I need him to explain clearly. I hate that I can't get this when I know it is easy. I hate that I'm sure I'm just missing something tiny. Some small step that makes it all come together and that I can't express that to anyone in a way to get me help. Great and now I'm crying again. I can't even face math class today. I can't quit I need these stupid classes to be able to advance to the next stage in my degree. I will never ever need this crap again and it is going to stop me from advancing to something worth while. Why the hell do I need a portfolio for math class? I hate my teacher. I just plain hate him even on a professional level. As a human being he is very nice I just wish he'd make more sense or be able to help me.
Fuck this I'm going out.
Christ I wish I was anywhere but here.
So school has utterly sucked today. Sucked sucked sucked. I'm thinking drinking my self into a stupor is beginning to look appealing.
I'm waiting for gaming society to start. I should be heading home to study or something but what ever.
Also I'm debating raping the bank. I need to call them tomorrow and yell at them loudly.
I'm waiting for gaming society to start. I should be heading home to study or something but what ever.
Also I'm debating raping the bank. I need to call them tomorrow and yell at them loudly.
I'm at school. I have an exam in Finacial Accounting later. I don't feel at all ready for it. I have one class before that. I'm thinking of taking my laptop to continue studying between classes but I have a feeling I'll need to break to calm down. I was so I tired I got a medium iced latte before my last class then a large one right after. Now I'm wired. Oh and double-sided accounting can just fucking well die. Oh and so can my teacher who explained it like crap hence I only just understood what the fuck she was talking about. Dumb twat.
*grumble*
Of course half of that was my fault for getting so sick I had to miss class.
Oh well I have a lit class next. I just got done reading Bryant for class. *sigh* I suppose I need to get up and go to class now. Had Microeconomics this morning and my teacher isn't a native english speaker. She is really hard to follow at times. Very annoying.
Class now. Stupid exam.
*grumble*
Of course half of that was my fault for getting so sick I had to miss class.
Oh well I have a lit class next. I just got done reading Bryant for class. *sigh* I suppose I need to get up and go to class now. Had Microeconomics this morning and my teacher isn't a native english speaker. She is really hard to follow at times. Very annoying.
Class now. Stupid exam.
So I spent the evening studying algebra with people from my class. We also bitched about the teacher and had a good time. Then a few of us went out to a pub. LOL Sooooo I spent the night at a friends house cause I was too tired and a little buzzed so driving home was a no go. I think I'm going to head straight up to Albany to hang with Scott today. No point in driving an hour to my house and then another 2 and a half back the same way. Going to Denny's tonight. Definitely heading home tonight though. Two days in the same clothes is more then enough for me. Even with a shower at Em's house.
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So I spoke with my mother about the issues I have with school. She suggest a few courses of action for me to try on my own. If the woman doesn't back down and give me my residency status I am to contact a student advocate and if needs be my mother will have her lawyer send them a letter. Hopefully it won't have to get that far but it is good to know that I have options. Things are looking okay I guess.
I'm still pretty covered in itchy bug bites. I finally gave up and dosed myself with Benadryl yesterday. I'm still sleepy and itchy so I might go take some more. Unfortunately, I have so many bug bites the drugs aren't working as well as usual. Oh well. Oh and I learned that you can in fact make yourself sick by using too much Benadryl Gel. Ah the things you learn.
Oh and I have some email to get back to people about. I haven't forgotten you all, I'm jus too tired to manage it right now. Sumimasen.
I'm still pretty covered in itchy bug bites. I finally gave up and dosed myself with Benadryl yesterday. I'm still sleepy and itchy so I might go take some more. Unfortunately, I have so many bug bites the drugs aren't working as well as usual. Oh well. Oh and I learned that you can in fact make yourself sick by using too much Benadryl Gel. Ah the things you learn.
Oh and I have some email to get back to people about. I haven't forgotten you all, I'm jus too tired to manage it right now. Sumimasen.
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