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[seorgia]

I'm at school right now. In a mood -- again. Can't seem to shake it from coming back again and again. Maybe it is just the season. Or maybe I need different meds. What a horrible thought for so many reasons. I cut off almost all my hair last night. Jesse helped me. It looks cute now. Then I stayed over New Paltz too late to go home and decided to crash in my car. I could have crashed in with people but I was in a thinking/talking to myself mood and needed some space. Which didn't end as well as it has before, like I said I'm in a mood. I'd love to say this is abnormal but it isn't. Today is the first day of the new year of the rat. The rat is the first animal of the 12. Today should be a good day of renewal of the world and it isn't. I'm going home soon. I haven't been at dinner lately and I miss seeing my family every night. I think it is effecting my moods. Plus I've been a real slouch around the house which doesn't fly. School has me busy but I should still be able to do better then this. My school money came yesterday so I'm gonna call around for doctors later for various physical issues. I see my mother next week. I wonder what she'll think of my hair? Oh well, it is my body. I'm gonna head home now I think. I always feel better at home.