Fucking Fail

This is probably one of the worst Mercs in Retrograde I have had to deal with in a long time. It is full of old issues coming back, things I thought I dealt with becoming problems all over again, major ups and downs within my headspace, and now to really top it all off I literally can no longer speak. I have gotten laryngitis all of a sudden. Today was... today was good on a few levels and horrible on a few others. None of which anyone but me is at fault for. I pushed something I should have let go and I ended up damaging myself. I just do the same thing over and over to myself and I should just plain know better. I'm not going to make some huge speech about how I'm going to fix this issue I have with people because that would be a lie. I've been trying for years and failing for just as long. So what ever I'm a total failure at interpersonal relationships and I'll just have to deal with the suck which is my life at times.

Anyhow I just got home and I'm mostly sober. Think I'm going to go remedy that and maybe cry on Kibble for a while. Fuck you Mercury, fuck you hard.

Pastry Works

I finally got around to uploading more pastry pictures to my facebook. Feel free to go check out what I've been doing all year. Or what I've gotten pictures taken of anyway LOL. I have also come to realize that almost no one orders non-chocolate cakes in my family. Out of the ones I did this year I think only Murph's and mine had any other flavors. Though Jeff's also had mint in it.

Pastry Works

I finally got around to uploading more pastry pictures to my facebook. Feel free to go check out what I've been doing all year. Or what I've gotten pictures taken of anyway LOL. I have also come to realize that almost no one orders non-chocolate cakes in my family. Out of the ones I did this year I think only Murph's and mine had any other flavors. Though Jeff's also had mint in it.