To Bed or Not to Bed

Weird title I know.

My mother has been asking me what I want for my main Christmas/Birthday present and I can't quite decide.

I really want a new bed. My present one isn't bad but it is about time to get a new one.

I also really want a digital camera. I don't own one at present, hell I've never owned one and I love taking pictures. Film is so stupidly expensive. She mentioned something about giving me my stepfather's old one but I think she forgot.

So mi madre will supply me with a brand new king size bed or a new camera (I haven't asked for both as as that would be greedy and she'd probably say no).

What ever I don't get now I can always get next year I'm sure. Hmm and while I'm thinking about it I haven't got a clue what I'm getting my parents this year. Oh bugger.

Hmm I really want to get a nice framed picture of the family to give to them. Or some separate ones of the kids and the like. I think they'll really like that. I mean the sprong aren't born to me but they are kinda mine and as close as my mother is getting to grandkids for a while. George already has grandkids. I always feel rather like a fuck up compared to is kids. I mean is daughter is about my age and soon to be a surgeon. What am I? A retard who is still kicking around college like a complete idiot? But then again I often feel like I've let my mother down. Funny thing is she doesn't think so and somehow that makes it all worse.

Oh well I refuse to let my head go there. That is a dark place where angels fear to tread.