So it is official, I will not be going back to New Paltz for college. Hmm some many emotions are wound up with this but I think it will work out better for me this way.

I went out today and saw The Happening. I'll give a full review later but I think I'll just sum it up in a few words, hello eco-moral movie suckidge. Seriously unhappy with how the movie turned out. I was so looking forward to it and it failed so hard. To give you some idea of how bad it was most of the audience started booing once the credits rolled and I was a breath of good taste away from joining them.

It is early in the morning and I should go try and sleep I guess.

Final Grades are in. I'm thinking of going to drown myself in the pond.

Instead I cried to my mom and I feel better. Now I have to deal with begging/yelling at teachers. One has caved and I need medical documentation. The other isn't responding to my emails and I hate her.

*sigh* Vacation soon. Speaking of which, I will have Monday-Wednesday June 9-11 free for anyone in the western PA and eastern Ohio area who wants to hang out/put me up for a couple of days. I will be going to the Khep Gather the previous weekend and then WtT the weekend after and it really makes no sense for me to drive home for two days and then back out to PA.

So if anyone wants to lay clam to the Seo for a few fun filled days of hanging out and goodness let me know. If not I'm just gonna grab a cheap ass hotel room for a couple days and veg.

Well I just failed my math final *face palms* why does this always happen to me? The shit I study being not what was on the test. Hello if you wanted a to testing me on nothing but graphing could you have just called it a graphing test?

God I hate me right about now.

This may fuck my college career hardcore. Fuck.

*sighs* Tomorrow is my microeconomics final and I'm done for this semester. *sigh* I should just go sign up for the same math class in the fall. There is no way I passed it. Ugh I suck!

It is finals week. I'm massively tired and dealing with tons of crap.

I have a few posts I want to make but not right now. I spent today in a drugged sleepy haze until late in the day. I'm picking up the lower dosage meds tomorrow. Then I let the ferrets play for a while. They still aren't getting along perfectly yet. Part of this I think is because they are on different schedules. The girl was up ready to play this evening but the boy just wanted to sleep. So there as fighting and wrestling but I'm sure they'll sort it all out eventually. I ended the evening with Timone curled up on m lap napping. He is a sweet little thing.

I have two finals first thing in the morning. I'm sort of ready for both of them. I'm going to try and wake up early to cram more. One is the math final i missed on tuesday night. Evidently they have a group math final instead of the normal scheduled math final. Yeah nice letting everyone know Teach. Anyhow after dealing with a bit of snarky nonsense I am taking the final tomorrow. I just have to remember to suck it up and deal with being told I'm a bad girl blah blah blah. FUck you lady, fuck you.

I have one final on Friday and I am done with done sauce. I think I did alright for the most part. I hope I did. I keep worrying about it all. I'm a bit screwed if I didn't do alright.

Okay sleep and studying and finals. here I go.

I have spent the last 20 mins talking to others in my class. Everyone is flipping out about this final. You weren't supposed to use outside sources and the reading makes little sense for what you are supposed to do. LOL This is going to be so much fun.

*shrugs* Oh well, honestly I got an A on my last test and if I get any points at all on this test I will pass the course. I pretty much only care about passing at this point. Everything else is gravy.

Five mins to go and the teacher is here.

EDIT: So I'm all done. It was a really stupid final. I would also like to note it is damned annoying to lose your original teacher 3/4s of the way through a course and have them replaced by a teacher who's teaching method is the exact opposite of the original teacher. They are so opposate that in the middle of the test this teacher said "Don't be terse. make sure you do all 350-500 words. The original teacher was always like BE TERSE. I don't care how much you write as long as you answer the question. Which, btw, IMHO is a better teaching methodology. I spent the last half an hour of my time padding my stupid essay because I had already written in terse speak before the other teacher opened his big yap. I'm way glad I had Mr. Marjolin as my beginning teacher. He was so cool.

Oh well time for more math review and then the math final. I feel confident that I passed the Eco class. Maybe not with flying colors but still passing.

Here's a quickie post. The new ferret has arrived and they are getting along alright. A bit of fighting as they develop a pecking order but otherwise things are okay. They are both very handleable and do not seem inclined to bite. The boy is curled up in his little nest and the girl is for some reason curled up on the friggin' shelf under the water bottle. Weirdo ferret.

I'm really fucking tired and I need to get my stupid lexapro script dropped again. So nap for me. i have finals all this week oh the yay. I'm gonna spend later tonight and all of tomorrow studying like a fiend. I have two on tuesday, one on thursday and one on friday. Yay the fun of my life *chuckles*. I suspect I will do alright. I need more time to studying but I feel okay. Not great but okay. It was a tough semester for so many reasons but I got through it and I think I'm going to pass everything. I may not get wonderful grades but i think i'll still pass well enough.

I knew this semester was starting to go too well. I lost part of my school funding. They need another 1361.00 from me now. I have no idea where I'm going to come up with over a thousand dollars. I'm already broke as hell and hunting the wild job.

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Fuck. Well .... fuck... gotta figure something out now.

I am in class. I should be doing Accounting work. Bwahaha I hate accounting so I am pestering you people. hehehe

That and I have no idea what we are doing in class. Mmmmm tasty unknowledge.

I feel very accomplished. So far today I have fixed my car (about an hour and both ends worked on), did my laundry (thank god!), registered for summer courses, faxed the financial aid crap I needed to send in, ordered dog meds/stuff, and taken care of a bunch of bills.

I forgot how much I really love working on cars. I didn't do anything complicated today but it was nice to do it on my own. My dad worked on cars and used to let me help. Still has fond memories attached to it. ^_^

Left to do is run to the post office, start applying to more jobs, file a few things, do some homework, and a bit more laundry. PLus a couple of other things I'm sure I'll think up later. I've been up since 1:30 am so yeah.

Also for my latest baking projects I am starting some work on sourdough breads. I really wanted a sponge from everywhere I have lived but I never started while I was in Albany. Maybe I can convince someone to start one for me and send it to me. They are going well. I gave them their 12 hour feeding and I have another in 3-4 hours. I also have to run and pick up something from a freecycler.

I'm off to start my temp agency calls then maybe start with the faxing of my resume to places. Plus I have to do my telephone interviews for the online work. I might go out and grab a few other applications as well. I'm in desperate need of la moola.

I also think I'm going to have to break down and buy more colored pencils for my baking projects. I have, somewhere, a huge package of different colors in different mediums but I cannot find it ANYWHERE! As such, I'm just going to buy a smallish package to get by on. I have to cakes in the active planning stage. One for Kt's b-day which is Friday and one for Sean. Sean gave me an idea of what he wants, though we need to discuss flavors but Kt has given me nothing but her full confidence (bwhaha). Planning I must start. I already have some ideas but i prefer to put them on paper first. Actually I think Kt mentioned somehting about wanting fondue cake bits which I really wouldn't have much to do with unless I stuffed them or something since frosting is not an issue. Unless I froze the frosting on which might be nice dipped into a hot sauce. Hmmmm melting might be an issue. Interesting ideas though. I love to work with pastry. Damn can't find where Jesse posted the pictures of the last boob cake. I need to fetch them from her at some point to add them to my pastry pictures. I feel rather chuffed though. Everyone at the party thought I should go pro and make cakes for a living. LOL It is a fond dream but there are so many things in the way of me doing so. Anyhow cool thought.

I need to finish writing up my notes on the recent metaphysical stuff. I did something the other night and I wonder if it changed things again. Gotta pin K down and see if she noted a difference.

Off I go to finish my chores ^_^

Why am I so very good at destroying my own life?

I just failed a fucking test because i just cannot get my head into the game. I'm so fucked.