Ugh feeling very tired and grundy. Got upset yesterday and went to hang out at the college for a long while. Came home and drank myself stupid on most of a bottle of brandy. Not the most sensible thing to do but if you are going to cry for six hours straight you might as well be drinking. I need to drag myself out of bed soon and slap a smile on my face. Today is Celia's birthday and I'll be damned if I let her think for even a moment that I'm upset about anything. Speaking of which where the hell did I leave her present. Hmmmm need to locate that. *sigh* Here I go.